life getting tougher everyday.. :(

its hard for me to make this decision.. if i'm not make a move now, i know, the situation will getting tougher and tougher every day i came to office.. i know, i cant simply give up on my job and working environment.. but this time... huhu.... if i let all of u know the situation, i think everyone of u will ask me to tender within 24 hours.. but life isnt simple as that...... if i cant tell the story... and if the problems can be solved just by telling you the story... but life still isnt simple.... huhu..

i have 3 children.. meaning i have a commitment... but i'm still cannot stay here any longer... its like putting my children's future in risky situation.. god, i dont know what to do... really.... i need my mom here... to guide me... to make decision .. she's always being a decision maker to me... at least, she will give me a fully support by hugging, smiling and kissing me... i am grateful that i'm still have her in my life... :)

i know allah will always be with 'org yang bersabar..' but lately, i do feel like i cant hold all these problems anymore myself... i just can't... my mom really sick, alhamdulillah, she is getting better now, hopefully she will always do...  but i'm still afraid everytime my phone was ringing... telling me her condition.. god, please...not now... i am still need her... now and forever...